Something’s been missing.
I haven’t been able to put my finger on it.
Motivation.
That’s the word! It’s something that we all need and something we sometimes don’t want. It’s often longed for, but bullied into the corner when we just want to turn off the world for awhile.
I have lost it in the juggling of life over the past year. I am sure we can all relate to this sentiment at some point over the last 18 months of so. The world has tried to snuff out the catalyst that keeps us focused and moving forward.
And in all of the rambling, I find no excuse to not be moving forward or focused on the importance of my Christian witness. This world seems to be evolving into secular downslide at rapid speed and we need to be ever more focused on Kingdom living.
Romans 12:11 ESV
Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord.
That’s me! Slothful. Well, mostly not, but definitely quite a bit more fatigued than I should be. It’s been rough. We have all been dealt quite the hand and some of us more burdensome elements than others. My slothfulness is more attitude driven than what I am doing at a physical level.
I have to make a very intentional drive to get myself going and ready to do battle each and every day. It’s hard when my eyes pop open at the break of dawn, smelling the coffee brewing, and listening for my pets to fuss at me to arise. Just five more minutes.
I swing those heavy limbs down to ready them to shuffle down the hall. I pour that coffee in hopes that it shocks me into consciousness.
It never does.
As I sit for a few moments to stare out the window, I think of what the day holds and the trials I made it through the day prior. Sometimes relief fills me and sometimes a whirlwind of disquietude flutters in my heart.
It’s in these thoughts that I open the only motivation that should make sense to a Christian’s heart when all is weary: God’s Word. I have been in The Word for over 150 days straight as of today. It hasn’t always been easy, but it’s what is not only needed, it is looked forward to.
2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
I am a weak, weak person and it’s only through that Lord that I can gather enough strength to see my days unfold. It is through Him that I face and conquer the mounding tribulations of this world. It is the Lord that sees me through the darkest nights and even the brightest days. He is there, always. For you. For me. He is there for all who place their trust in Him.
His grace is sufficient and He is perfected when we place our trust in Him in our weakness.
On those lonely mornings, allow for that coffee to warm your body, but let your true desire for the day be placed in our Lord Jesus.
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I am a weak, weak person, too. But I do want to finish my race well. Thank God His grace is sufficient!
God’s word has been my refuge in this time. My husband and I read together every morning, on a plan to read through the Bible in a year. I agree with you–the times are difficult, even depressing. We need to stay strong in our witness, encouraging each other. Thank-you for your honest words.
Maryann, thanks for sharing so honestly. Thanks also for the encouragement, especially these words, “It is the Lord that sees me through the darkest nights and even the brightest days. He is there, always.” Visiting from FMF. Blessings.