Standing in the corner, trying hard to become one with the wall is how I often feel in multiple settings.
Afraid to share life because it takes a lot of work. Some make it look so easy with their perfected hair, trendy clothing, and adept knowledge of timely matters. Their laughter drowns out any doubts from the circle that surrounds them, so I just sink back further.
This is something that I have tried to conquer in the faith blogging world and pages of social media. If others could accomplish this task so easily with mom buns and leggings intact, than so could I. Faith blogging world, watch out because I will knock your socks off… but I haven’t.
I sink back into that corner and blend in with the graying walls of dissatisfaction.
Sometimes I wonder if I share too personal of a story at times. Do people want to hear about my life, my testimony? I think I can make a difference when I share life, but maybe not.
Maybe I share too much about how the Lord is working around me instead of political advice as a Christian or theological testaments of faith and study. I mean how could I compete with scholars, preachers and professors of faith when I am so much lower on the totem pole of shared faith opportunities?
Then sometimes I think that I share for my own gain and not the Lord’s fame. I like to share my thoughts, life, testimonies, and wonderful opportunities. I also humbly admit that I do want people to think that I am kinda’ cool. But here’s the thing, I come to realize that it really isn’t about me or all the cool stuff that I get to do or wish I could do. It’s about how the Lord uses me to grow the kingdom and be a witness of His faith to the masses (or my 22 blog followers).
Matthew 5:16 ESV
In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.
I want to make Him famous. To do this, I need to share. I don’t want to blend in and be dull. I want to embrace the whole picture, dive deep and bring glory through this opportunity I have in blogging and social sharing. I pray to stay humble and useful, to not waste time in self-pity.
I am always looking for advice on how to grow this blog and social media pages. What is something that you like on this blog and on my social media pages, and what is something that I should change? Better yet, if I took these devotionals and testimonies to paper, what would you like to see in a book? Thank you for sharing your own thoughts with me.
I pray to stay humble and useful, to not waste time in self-pity. Click To TweetJoin me as I track through 31 days of free writes with my Five Minute Writing Community. Today’s theme: FMF- SHARE. For more posts, please click here.
I could have written these words Maryann as I have thought them over and over again. Don’t you think that writers by nature like to fade into the background? We are observers, recorders, ponderers. That is until it comes to our writing we want that in the spotlight! Such conflict! I very much enjoy the honesty and openness of your writing. It’s relatable to all who are walking this journey with Christ. Keep going! God Bless, Cindy
Thank you Cindy, for your encouragement.
I love this so much. I m your “23rd follower!”. Looking forward to reading more. Those who hearts bleed words must stick together. I’m in the #26th spot at the FMF. I hope you will also read some of my #write31days series.
Thank you 🙂 I’ll be sure to head over to your blog.
Maryann, this is brilliant, and I think you’re WAY cool. Don’t stop sharing you heart and faith, ever.
#1 at FMF this week.
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