For a few years now I have been thinking about my purpose, my mission in life.
How complete has been my testimony, my legacy? Am I enough or done enough?
Most modern people, especially women, think to run with the big dogs and establish triumphant returns, they must sacrifice self more than ever. Time is of the essence and there’s never enough in one day to cram in the work, activities, volunteer hours, children, spouse, church, or any other kind of spiritual need. We push to the side sabbath and self-care because those don’t have us moving forward, propelling a life time of do more and be more. Completeness isn’t found in our own care, but in what we’re known for, right?
We are too driven by the flesh.
Romans 8:5 ESV
For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit.
A few years ago when I would get mad at my children, I would want to stomp my feet and yell about the sacrifices I have made to be there for them. I gave up a career, money and livelihood that all came with those things. I thought that I was only leaving a legacy of the stay-at-home mom who just made it through with nothing to show for herself other than children who were saved from public school that may or may not have failed them in their goals for adulthood. My hands felt empty and my children felt annoyed. My world felt incomplete.
Realizing that my identity as a mother was more than unfulfillment in my life, I noticed that my children were full. Their identities as Christians, daughters and sons, and well-rounded individuals were flourishing got me to think more about where they received these things from.
They have been brought up on solid faith. They have never been taught to be self-serving, but to seek the Lord first and to let the Spirit guide. The example was already set for me, by me, and yet I wasn’t following it. I was still self-searching.
I have been more than a conqueror over my own self ideologies of what my life is supposed to be like, to mean. When I decided that faith life was the most important thing to instill in my children, I was actually instilling that in my own.