Confidence, it’s something that I wish I had.
Butterflies flare up when I stand up front. My shoulders tense up in pain when mama bear wants to rip out. Tears flow when someone offends me. Knees jerk in response to injustice. And through all of the physical reactions, a blubbering fool comes out of my mouth and I feel rejected, foolish, stupid and small. My passion isn’t enough and no amount of knowledge saves me from the wall I so desperately wish to be come part of.
But no amount of failing can take away from the love and passion I feel in the heart knowledge I have of truth. Truth stands with me, holding my hand as I want to throw down all the problems with the world. Truth stands with me in the hurt and tears. It holds me, soothes me, and dries my tears.
Too bad truth doesn’t cause the butterflies to leave or the raging bear to be a calm dove.
My passion doesn’t get put out so easily, but maybe that’s what truth does.
Truth guides and directs. Discernment follows in its path and soars above skewed thoughts. Truth makes the road tough, but gives you hope in the journey.
Where my confidence lacks, God sends His Spirit and fills in the cracks, He refines me in every way.
Isaiah 54:17 NIV
no weapon forged against you will prevail,
and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
and this is their vindication from me,”
declares the Lord.
While I work on my dealings with people, I do have confidence in the Lord. He is working and molding me according to His will. Because of His indwelling spirit, I do not fear the darkness. No evil forged against me shall prosper. Try as it might in online battles, lack in self-esteem, and tifts among family, the Lord follows through and upholds His loved ones.Where my confidence lacks, God sends His Spirit and fills in the cracks, He refines me in every way. Click To Tweet
While I rage against myself in trying to build up gumption to speak my mind or stand tall with words, I am at peace in knowing the Lord is with me through it all. In that, I will have confidence.
This post comes from the 20 Days of Devotionals series.