Dragging sin around my neck for years upon years kept me in a bondage to heaviness of heart and mind.
No matter how much forgiveness I sought, I thought I would never quite belong to the kingdom. When I was tied to the lack of forgiveness of self, I felt sold-out to a life of sorrow.
The trap of comparison soon followed as well as the continued false ideal of ugliness. I could never possibly fit in when those sinners live over there a life of freedom while I can’t seem to knock the mud off my muddled mind.
When would the burden lift? How could I forgive myself? Will I ever forget?
After years of prayer, I found the answer in my pastor’s words. He told me that if I believed in the Lord’s forgiveness there is no need to forgive myself. Hanging on to the lie of condemnation is another sin and it needed to be broken.
1 Peter 2:9 ESV
But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.
Fighting back with truth when faced with the lies of rejection is not only God honoring, but Spirit driven. Sometimes easier said than done, we need to make a point of being intentional in our seeking for truth in the darkness of the shadow we may have been living in for a long time.
We are a broken people and God placed a rescue plan into motion to mend us from this brokenness. We don’t need to be perfect to be perfectly loved by our Father and Creator. Therefore we do not need to hang on to the lie of self-forgiveness. We are free from that bondage when we place our burdens at the cross.
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You are sharing such an important lesson here Maryann! I so appreciate you sharing your struggles (which are so similar to mine) and the wisdom you’ve gained from them! Your words are an encouragement!
It seems forgiving oneself is so much harder than forgiving others, at least for me. I’m glad you are sharing, I’ll be back to read more. Thank you.
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Thank you for reading.